Confetti

by cwviderkull

There once was a clown
who cried confetti.
Small pieces of paper
would fall from his eyes.

Considered the greatest of tricks
he was invited to perform it
in front of cheering crowds.

Addicted to the fame
he never told anyone
that his heart was made of paper
and that when shredded
it would bleed
in the form of confetti
or that while they were laughing
and clapping their hands
he was recalling
the saddest of memories
to keep the tears flowing.

One evening on stage
he stared at his audience
with eyes wide open
and fell down dead.
There was no more paper
of which to make confetti.

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The Revelation

By the side of an old worn down road in a house that had clearly seen better days a proud yet disillusioned and melancholic man was running a Bed & Breakfast. The road had been a busy one for well over a century, since the traffic was propelled by animals, and the little Bed & Breakfast had flourished under his family’s management for four generations. Now, since a new nearby highway was built a few years ago, he could count the traffic passing in a day on his fingers and toes and he had been forced into the decision of closing the Bed & Breakfast down. There simply was no customer base anymore. Since he was unmarried and didn’t have any children the family business would in all likelihood eventually have died with him anyway but it was still with a broken heart that he finally filed the necessary paperwork and started pondering what he would do with the rest of his life.

Late in the evening of the very last day that he would keep the place open a very old man came wandering along the side of the road, supporting himself on a long wooden staff. He introduced himself to the Bed & Breakfast keeper, explaining that he used to be a priest but had been fired from his congregation after he himself had started to receive visions from god and that he had now committed himself to aimlessly wander the earth, surviving entirely on charity from others. When he thus asked if he could possibly stay the night free of charge the Bed & Breakfast keeper couldn’t hold back a broad smile, thinking that he couldn’t have thought up a more fitting last guest if he tried, and let the priest know that he was welcome to stay as long as he desired, for which the priest thanked him dearly but reassured him that one night would be quite enough. The two men shared a dinner together that night that the Bed & Breakfast keeper, in honor of the occasion, prepared himself, the both of them eating in comfortable silence.

In the middle of the night the Bed & Breakfast keeper was awakened by noise coming from the old priest’s room and, bouncing out of bed in a hurry, he ran down the stairs and the length of the corridor to see what was going on. Opening the door he found the old man twisting and turning in his bed, slamming his staff against the floor and yelling out for the Bed & Breakfast keeper to come to him and seeing that his wishes had been answered the priest calmed down and gestured for the man to come closer to the bed.

‘I had another vision.’

He said with a serious expression on his face.

‘I believe it is to be my very last one and it was about you.’

‘About me?’

Asked the Bed & Breakfast keeper with surprise and obvious disbelief but feeling sympathetic towards the old man he still asked him to go on and tell him what it had been about. The priest gestured for him to lean in even closer and then he told him, in a low and fateful voice.

‘A few days ago there was a child born in the village nearest to here, a son born to a baker and a school teacher. This child is very dangerous and you must kill it. That is your destiny, what you were put here on earth, in this house, to do.’

The Bed & Breakfast keeper couldn’t, and didn’t want to, believe what he was hearing but before he had time to respond the old priest drew his final breath and fell back against his pillow, dead. Going through the motions of all the necessary practical and administrative work resulting from the death of a guest in one of his rooms, the man moved as through a haze, unable to take his mind off the dying priest’s last words. He had always considered himself a person of faith but not to the degree where he would be inclined to believe someone claiming visions from god and he, for obvious reasons, specifically didn’t want to believe in this particular one. He couldn’t seriously be meant to do the unspeakable thing that had been asked of him, could he? Yet, there was something about the look in the dying priest’s eyes that made it utterly impossible for him to entirely shake off the possibility that he might have been telling the truth.

More out of curiosity than anything else, at least to begin with, the Bed & Breakfast keeper during the weeks that followed looked into the details of what the old priest had told him and was rather shaken to confirm that a son had indeed been born to a baker and a school teacher a few days before the incident. It had apparently been something of a miracle since the mother a few years before had been told she would never be able to bear children, a fact that the Bed & Breakfast keeper couldn’t help but interpret as giving weight to the priest’s supposed vision. Not once did he seriously consider going through with what he had been asked to do but he was never able to fully shake it off either and it gnawed on him until he himself died, only a few years later, broken down by the fear of what his punishment might be for refusing to fulfill his duty in the case that it had indeed been assigned to him by god. He was found dead in a chair by his breakfast table, his hair all white and a sad expression of long-term terror on his face.

The son of the baker and the school teacher, utterly unaware of either the priest’s deathbed vision or the anguish of the Bed & Breakfast keeper, grew up to be … just some guy. He works in a grocery store and makes up an enthusiastic cornerstone of a mediocre bowling team. He enjoys classic rock, crossword puzzles, crime novels and reality television, and drinks an entirely normal yet not quite healthy amount of beer.
The end.

She stood crying

She stood crying
in the rain
trying to take comfort
in the fact that
nobody could see her tears

The raindrops make them redundant
she said, almost out loud
and redundancy can never be quite harmful
I’m wasting them, if anything
that’s my crime
yes. guilty.

You hear that?!
I’m wasting you.
You’re wasted.
Spilled. For nothing.
Meaningless.
Salience is not the goddamn difference between despair and slight annoyance!
It’s not.

But it is though. And she knew that.
She knew
the world is funny that way
it’s not just whats but also whys
and
even though her eyes are blue
they’re not the sky
and
rain don’t fall from blue skies
anyway.

An Old Jigsaw, now as an ebook

An old Jigsaw

Some time ago I put up this collection of poetry and flash fiction on Wattpad, to try out the platform. I’ve now come to what feels a lot like a conclusion that it wasn’t the right place for it, or indeed me. I’ll leave it up there, but to put it to rest I’ve now also made an extended version of it available as a free ebook through Smashwords.

It’s about the millennial experience of growing up in this world of ours, of trying to find your place and that feeling of wanting to stay in the moment while at the same time being in a rush to get on with the rest of your life.

Some pieces in it have already been featured here on my blog, some first saw the light of day on Wattpad and some are unique to the now available ebook version.

Get it here through Smashwords, or, if you neither have nor feel like creating an account, send me an email at cwviderkull@gmail.com, tell me which format you would like it in, and I’ll send it to you.

Or, if you for some reason would rather like to do that, you can still find it here on Wattpad.

Nosy Neighbour – 79 word story

She woke up,
same time she always did,
drank coffee by the kitchen window,
as she always did,
and watched her neighbour leave,
same time he always did.

It was funny.
She had seen him leave so many times.
He seemed to always be wearing the same clothes
and she couldn’t remember him ever coming back again.

This morning she followed after,
through town,
through an old rusty gate,
and then she woke up,
same time she always did.